looks like it has come to the ending that i have always dreaded.

it could have ended on a better note though. but looking at how dismal and bleak things were, it couldnt have been a lot better.

i believe you may blame me for everything, maybe not.

i know for sure that you wouldnt understand the humiliation of giving it up, or of standing by in the shadows continuously. the problem was, i let you have your way WAY too often. I accepted whatever you threw at me or whatever reason or explanation. My problem was I couldnt trust you or maybe i just dont trust people easily. maybe it's a problem with me, not you.

so many maybes, but what for?

i will no longer remain delusional.